This weekend was just about more than I could bear. I already had to rewrite the schedule for this month due to one of my TAC officers' drill weekend, but I promised two of them time off this weekend, one's family member passed, and another is in the hospital with a condition he's been suffering from for over a week. Turns out it was more serious than a muscle pull.
This morning I had to get up before most everyone else and take a cadet to Alcorn State University for his ACT. One of the TAC's came in to cover the dorm for me last night and so I was prepared to move into the dorms for tonight so he could carry out his plans for the weekend. When I returned to the dorm, he casually but frankly told me he had decided that he was not going to go through with his weekend plans because it would leave us in an extreme bind. I'm deeply humbled; and tired. It's been hard to keep myself composed after that. What do you say when someone shows you kindness that you don't deserve? It's uncomfortable knowing you owe someone so much. I think this is how I'm supposed to feel toward God in Christ for all He's done for me.
I already don't get to spend as much time with my family, but thanks to that TAC officer, I'll get to spend some with them this weekend. Prior to this, I was feeling sorry for myself that I don't get enough time with my boys. God shut me up and gave me a lot of perspective.
